There is this sudden blankness again. Not about what to write or stuff like that. Some kind of emptiness on the whole!!
This keeps happening every now and then. It will appear like everything is going well and suddenly nothing will mean anything anymore.
I think life keeps moving forward in a continuous march towards some deadline, goal post or an event. If something was to happen, lets say a week from now, the entire time preceding that moves with a sense of purpose towards that event.
It could be a B’Day that is coming up, or a holiday or a meeting. Something to stay focused at, for the next few days. When there is nothing of that sort, the emptiness creeps in and rears its ugly head.
Maybe this happens because the regular life looks too mundane and flat, that you have to set some artificial milestones to look forward to.
But everytime, you look back and realize that there is so much time that has passed through, you get a feeling that life is willing to go on without your participation.
I am wondering what will happen if I really chase my dream and get into an idyllic village, doing nothing and try to spend time reading and writing. On hindsight, it looks like a very depressive situation.
I think I should stop reading James Redfield, Paulo Coelho, Robert Fulghum and Robin Sharma for a while. Life sometimes is better off without thinking about God, Philosophy. Just not think too much and keep running it simple and straightforward
This keeps happening every now and then. It will appear like everything is going well and suddenly nothing will mean anything anymore.
I think life keeps moving forward in a continuous march towards some deadline, goal post or an event. If something was to happen, lets say a week from now, the entire time preceding that moves with a sense of purpose towards that event.
It could be a B’Day that is coming up, or a holiday or a meeting. Something to stay focused at, for the next few days. When there is nothing of that sort, the emptiness creeps in and rears its ugly head.
Maybe this happens because the regular life looks too mundane and flat, that you have to set some artificial milestones to look forward to.
But everytime, you look back and realize that there is so much time that has passed through, you get a feeling that life is willing to go on without your participation.
I am wondering what will happen if I really chase my dream and get into an idyllic village, doing nothing and try to spend time reading and writing. On hindsight, it looks like a very depressive situation.
I think I should stop reading James Redfield, Paulo Coelho, Robert Fulghum and Robin Sharma for a while. Life sometimes is better off without thinking about God, Philosophy. Just not think too much and keep running it simple and straightforward
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சும்மா இரு சொல்லற என்றலுமே
அம் மாபொருளொன்றும் அறிந்திலனே
(அல்லது)
அம்மா பொருளொன்றும் அறிந்திலனே
நீரின் மேல் நடக்கலாம்.
நெருப்பின் மேல் தங்கி இருக்கலாம். தமக்கும் மேலான பிற சித்திகளைப் பெறலாம்.
ஆனால், மிக்க கடினம் யாதெனில் "மனத்தை அடக்கி சும்மா இருக்கின்ற திறம் அரிது".
sorry for reply in Tamil.
But the above verse of Tamil saint Arunagirinathar can be understood only when emptiness attacks suddenly.
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